Ya...my vision through my right eye is definitely worse. When I close my left eye and look through my right eye I am able to see, but I need to stare at things and move my head around to see them. Reading my monitor with just my right eye is near impossible. This is kind of the shits.

And then at around 5:30 the shimmering band went away. Wow, what a relief. My vision through my right eye still seems to be a little off, just not quite as sharp, but at least things aren't blurry and shimmering.

Jeeze, everything seems to happen at once.

Today around 4 in the afternoon I was using the computer downstairs and just couldn't read anything. Its kind of dark down there, so I quit the computer and turned on the big screen TV. It didn't seem that clear either. I mean I could make things out and everything, but there was something not quite right. I made my way upstairs where things are much brighter. It is a beautiful bright, warm summer day and the sunlight and warmth are pouring in.

In thew brighter light I could see that through my right eye there was a clear, shimmering, semicircle thick band of distortion. It is hard to describe its size, but while looking at a 20” lcd monitor about 1.5 ~ 2 feet away, it would appear to be about 4” ~6” in width and form half a ring through half my field of vision. Interestingly, the centre of the ring, crescent really, was fine. Only the band of the ring was distorted and shimmering. It was really quite amazing, and frightening.

I blinked and squinted to get rid of it, but of course I couldn't. Irene came home from work and noticed me blinking and squinting and asked what was wrong. I didn't want to alarm her so said nothing and did my best to stop squinting and blinking.

Now shuffling around is going to be an even greater challenge. I seem to get my balance through my sight so that is going to become an issue. And I am going to need to be doubly careful about throw rugs, water on tiles, and things on the floor. This is just so weird.

For the most part I have a pretty positive attitude. But even the most upbeat people go through down days and down funks. During my last down funk I was going to shut down this blog and spend the rest of my days in bed. Basically, it can all be summed up like this; CCSVI doesn't work and living with MS is the shits. But, I can't just quit like that. And, when I go to bed, every part of my body that touches the mattress hurts. My MS is telling me to get up and get going. So, this will continue. Know one is reading it but me, but that doesn't matter because I'm doing it for myself anyway. The one thing I am going to try and do is post sonmething at least once a week.