feeling down and blue

I'm still feeling down and blue because my dog Kolby died. I'm slowly getting over it. Believe it or not, having a regiment of exersises and vitamins to take help.

feeling frustrated.

Ah, who am I fooling. I'm taking my vitamins and doing my exercises and nothing has changed. I'm sore and have colorful pee; that is it. I'm f'd and am going to remain f'd no matter what I do.

At approximately 2:30 last Sunday afternoon Kolby, our 14 year old cocker spaniel was put to sleep. The week was very hard on him. He could barely lift his head and could not eat or drink on his own. Irene had bought a baby bottle and used it to feed and water him, but still, when we took him to the Vet on Friday he was extremely dehydrated. Saturday when we visited him he couldn't lift his head, but he wagged his tail as we petted him. On Sunday he was totally unresponsive and his breathing was very labored. The Vet offered no hope and said this was best. The Vet said he had pneumonia, a black stool indicating internal bleeding, highly elevated white blood cell count and high liver enzymes.The Vet believed this indicated either a tumor, a growth in/on his liver spleen or cancer. We will miss him.